Tuesday, May 7, 2013

honest writing

Something's telling me I should just sit down with a 
blank blog post and start writing.

About what? I'm still not entirely sure, 
but the word HONESTY seems to be flashing behind my 
eyelids at this very moment. 

So....maybe I'll just write. 

Life is really good right now. 

I feel a sense of purpose, I feel like my head is clear and I'm doing exactly what I'm supposed to be doing.

I feel like I have this amazing group of people in my corner, and that the relationships in my life are getting STRONGER. 

When I got home from MTH, I half-wrote a ton of blog posts, all of which were meant to be finished someday and a published with some sort of relevant photo at the end. One of those posts was about how running your own business from home creates a big strain on friendships, and I made this really awesome reference about how friendships are like baby ferns (think How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days), that need lots of love and affection. 

I realized that there were people in my life who I wasn't paying enough attention to! Great friends with similar schedules, in similar stages of life, who I'd just FORGET to text or email every once in awhile! Great friendships that just needed a little bit of attention to make them stronger. 

On another note, I've realized that my home is so much tidier than it used to be, and slowly but surely I'm working my way through the whole house to declutter and simplify. It's a wonderful feeling :)

I'm becoming more and more aware that there's so much stuff I want to change about my environment before bringing a baby into it, and it's keeping me fired up and able to dig away at those tasks. 

(My next BIG hurdle is the closet in the guest-room 
that will eventually become a baby-room...
that closet desperately needs to be totally gutted and sorted...)

Almost everyone I know asks me how the baby-making is going, at pretty much every opportunity possible, so I thought I'd give an update:

This is our 4th month trying, and it's completely stress-free and still very positive and optimistic. I think about 6 months is a pretty average time for people to try, which was confirmed by my family doctor recently. He has told me that anytime after 6 months, we will be able to go see a fertility specialist to get that ball rolling and figure out the next steps. 

I'm so glad that I've been sharing my stories about trying to get pregnant, because I've been getting a lot of really great advice from friends and family members, and it's pretty awesome that I don't have to feel weird about not drinking at social events. 

As I'm writing this, I can't help thinking that it would be an insanely boring post to read...but something was telling me to write it, and hey! documenting your thoughts at various stages of life is a fantastic perk for any blog writer!

I think I'll end this post with something I wrote yesterday:

Life is super simple right now. 
Each morning I wake up with very little written in 
stone on my agenda, and I make a series of choices 
about how I want to spend my day... 

For some reason I feel SO weird about writing this post, but at the same time I know that one day I'll be glad to have it. It will be a snapshot into what life looked like wayyyyyy back in 2013. 

My appreciation for that exceeds my embarrassment about baring my soul on the internet. 

I keep telling myself that.